If I say that I'm in pain, I'm scared that I'll really be in pain. If I say that i'm sad, I'm scared that i'll shed my tears. Why don't i just laugh, just laugh, just laugh....But people ask me why I'm crying. Everyday I cry, I smile, cry then smile again, What's wrong with me, why do I do this repeatedly? Can't differentiate between bottles of alcohol and meals. Sor far In my life, I never felt pain this excruciating. Absentmindedly, I write your name over and over on a piece of paper. In a day, the paper becomes black and I finally let the pen go. I long for you, i hold on my cellphone and let it go. My eyes are filling up with tears again, this separation between us... I'm without a heart, I don't have a heart, so I wouldn't be feeling pain. Everyday I talk to myself, and put myself under a spell. But even so, I keep shedding my tears. If I say that I'm in pain, I'm scared that I'll really be in pain. If I say that i'm sad, I'm scared that i'll shed my tears. Why don't i just laugh, just laugh, just laugh....But people ask me why I'm crying, when I'm laughing like this.... After you left, I think I become a fool, i can't do, I can't do anything, so I die. I shove myself into a corner and live, without you there's nothing left to do. A day is too long, way too long. But what was I busy with, to make you fell so lonely. When you wanted to go shopping, going out with my friends was so easy, why couldn't I do the same to you? I always regretted being so slow, I don't know if I'm really stupid, but I still can't let go of our bond. If I say that I'm in pain, I'm scared that I'll really be in pain. If I say that i'm sad, I'm scared that i'll shed my tears. Why don't i just laugh, just laugh, just laugh....But people ask me why I'm crying, when I'm laughing like this.... Let's smile like couple in a drama, let's smile like the title of your blog, let's smile happy like in my past. I'm without a heart, I don't have a heart, I'm without a heart, i can't be in pain. let's just laugh, just laugh, just laugh. Please, please let's strop crying now...
8eight - Without A Heart